Memories

It was a sunny afternoon mid July and the feeling was just right, love was in the air. She sat on a bench across from me glowing beautifully in the afternoon sun. As I walked over I slid the ring out of my pocket trying to hide it from her view. My sweaty hands made the tiny golden band slippery and hard to hold on to. I sat down next to her, shaking and obviously nervous, she asked me if I was OK. "Molly, will you marry me?". The next few seconds of my life felt like an eternity... finally... "Yes". At this moment my heart filled with a feeling I had rarely felt before, it filled with love, excitement, joy, strength, courage, hope, and most importantly happiness.
Moments like this don't happen very often in our lives unfortunately, but when they do happen it is truly special and we should always allow ourselves to cherish these moments.

This event took place in my life almost two years ago. Here I am now in front of my computer screen poking away at my keyboard, alone, tired, sad, and the slightest bit bitter. Needless to say we never got married and that was probably for the best. I've spent a lot of time lately wondering where it all went wrong, but as i think about it more and more I realize that nothing at all went "wrong" things just didn't go as I had expected. I'm sure that what happened to me was exactly what was supposed to happen to me at this point in my life. Some people say its fate, some people say its destiny, some people say its god's plan, I say its luck of the draw. Some of us are lucky and some of us aren't. You can call it an unfortunate coincidence if you want to. I don't care what the hell you call it the point and the most important thing is that no matter what happens to us in our lives there is always something to learn.

For some of us the old cliche still holds true "Its better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all" and for some of us it doesn't. I like to think of a separation as a time of renewal, a time to think back and remember the happiness of being in love and use that memory to fuel my passion for life and fuel my future ventures and my hope for eventually finding the right person to share my life with. So lets always remember our good times in life and try to avoid the bitterness that often is so easy to hold on to.

Jesse Roulette
Remembering things One at a Time

One at a time

My name is Jesse Roulette. I'm not a professional writer, I didn't go to college or university, as a matter of fact i didn't even scrape up enough grades to finish high school. Does this make me stupid in some way? Does it make me dumb or ignorant? Maybe it makes me irresponsible and illiterate, yea, that has to be it! Although i didn't spend very much time attending my wonderfully under budgeted public school i did learn a lot. I learnt about math and science, history and language, geography and politics, i learnt many important things from my limited time studying but one thing that no school in the world can teach you is common sense.

The funny thing about common sense is that unfortunately some of us have it and some of us don't. Does anyone really remember how or when they first learnt about common sense? I don't. I'm sure that somewhere down the line we have all had a conversation with somebody lacking in the common sense department. Its quite sad sometimes. I have recently gone through a separation and it has been difficult. Two people who thought they loved each other more than anything else in the world just to find out three years later that they didn't. Now some people may call this a bad relationship, some people may call this a waste of three years. Because i don't like to throw anything away and i refuse to believe i just threw away three years of my life i like to call it a sociological study of common sense, with excellent results. Now I'm not here to call down my ex or make fun of people in anyway shape or form, all I'm wondering is if we as the human race can unify and find an effective way to teach people common sense. If we teach common sense to the world we could make a difference. Maybe we won't make a difference but at least if we teach common sense to those who lack it, we who have it won't have to deal with them anymore and for me that's a good start! So please people for the sake of man kind if you know an individual lacking in common sense slap them across the head and tell them to read this! Thank You!

Jesse Roulette
Teaching Idiots One at a Time